I keep the letter inside my T shirt. I hide it from everyone in the house. I giggle and I laugh reading it on the stairs to my rooftop. I am so overjoyed. I am so excited.
I wonder how much efforts must have gone into sending this love note all the way from you to here. You haven’t forgotten after all. What a wonderful way to make me feel special and loved. Who would do that? This was so pleasantly unexpected. The sentences, the words are making me feel fortunate. Oh how wonderful. I am never going to forget this. Never ever.
I kiss the letter and I dance with it on my rooftop. Weather is awfully windy and its drizzling.
My hair flutter in the wind reading your handcrafted words, your words are heartfelt. Rain drops began pouring as if I am drenching in the love of you. I recall our first rain filled meeting.
A cold windy breeze is touching my face and I miss the winter evening walking with you into the hub. It feels like yesterday. How we walked and we talked. How I was smitten by you. How you told me everything here was built while you lived here. How we stared at the beautiful lights, beautiful flowers, and beautiful legs. I laugh reminiscing our first evening spent together. How with you I felt the most happiest. I miss you so much.
I love rain. I hide in the shelter of my rooftop and I read the letter just as if you are talking to me. I want to just keep reading it and I want to come see you. I cannot wait. I wish you were here and I could hug you to sleep. I want to be near you. I want to be in your embrace. I have been missing you so much. I burn for you everyday. I want to lay beside you and run my fingers through your hair.
I wonder how would I be able to live without you for so many months. I can’t. I won’t be able to. I have been waiting for you so long. I wish I can wait but the truth is I don’t want to spend another moment without you. I don’t want to see anything without you. I am so sorry. I love you more than anything and I cannot give you whatever you want.I am listening to my heart. I am selfish. I want you. I need you. I cannot live without you.
I talk to my friends, not listening to whatever they say. All I am indulged is in your letter, how beautiful it is. How lovely your feelings are. I keep staring at it. I wonder if I fail due to over dose of these words and you win due to the gestures. Should I tell you less, so that my words mean more? I am living and breathing in the moments I spend with you. I have forgotten any life that exists beyond them. My life is such a waste without you. I don’t want to live without you.
These feelings are too much for me to handle. I can’t stay away. I can’t control them. They are making me mad. I cannot hold my love for you any longer. I love you so much. I want this madness to end. I want to see you, be with you for every single second, every single moment. I don’t want anything other than you beside me.
I have lived a life hiding away all my emotions. With you in my life, they are everywhere. I want to hug you after a tiring day. I want to kiss you every morning. I want to see you every evening and I want to be able to look into your lovely eyes. I don’t want to spend another day with you in my head. I cannot pretend anymore.
I am reading your letter, lying in my bed. Holding it since it arrived. I have read it in all corners of my house and I would sleep with the letter under my pillow. It is full of love.
I wonder does everyone feels the same in love? No one ever told me what did they feel when they were in love. I was too stupid to notice. The craziness, the madness. Thank you for not letting me feel stupid or crazy. Thank you for not telling me that I am too emotional. Thank you for not telling me to not love you so deeply. Thank you for not getting angry at me for being emotionally entangled and attached with you. Thank you for respecting and responding to my obsessed love feelings for you, I don’t know whether they are right or not. Thank you for letting me feel for you, in the way it scares me.
Love is intangible. You are true definition of love. I thought I know what love is, that love is mature and love is this, love is that.
I had it all wrong. I wonder if you also learned it along with me. You and your love is beyond my comprehension. I was so scared of showing you how I feel but you never once told me that my feelings are absurd. No matter how irrelevant they seem, you acknowledge them. You floor me every single day. I learn so many things about you.
I think I have a lot to know about you. Your love is above and beyond. I just saw what I really wanted to see. I never actually saw what is there. I still haven’t forgotten the phone call when I heard those magical words from you not once but thrice. I wish I can go back and listen to them again.
I was wondering how would I express my love for you finally and I know it would be a very emotional moment for me. I would cry when I would finally get you. I would cry saying those words to you. I don’t know why I am crying writing this. But I love you a lot. These tears, they don’t stop. I can’t wait to hold you. I can’t live without you.
Please meet me soon. I love you. I miss you so much.