I am sitting working over the bright blue screen, and suddenly, I listen to a beautiful song playing in the background, and my attention is drawn towards the lyrics, so beautiful, with the promise of love, togetherness, longing for someone and it instantly brings a smile to my face.
I am reminded of how badly I wanted someone to be so close to my heart, searching for that one person with whom I am going to spend the rest of my life.
And then I met you, and my life changed forever, I never knew I could be so sleepless over someone, so hopelessly in love that one day it would destroy me completely.
I am reminded of the old days, Oh how much I wanted you, more than the rest of this world, more than anything, my shooting star wish, my life, all my prayers to be with you, in every hope, in every dream, I found you and I so wished for you, to be madly in love with you.
Looking, waiting, and doing every possible thing to make you a part of my life, how your face would make my heart skip a beat, how my heartbeats rush for you, how lovely the time apart used to be, that longing to meet, to be with you, not seeing each other for days, not wanting to go, to be always together.
Looking back in time, I feel that all this time was my love reciprocated, or it was me who feels every tiny thing, always lost in you, your thoughts, waiting for you to love me, with the same intensity as I love you.
Why can I not see your love, why does my heart feel empty inside, my soul, my heart my body longs for you and it keeps wondering when will be this love be reciprocated, tired of all the aloofness, that is slowly growing between us, I wish for better days, full of love, to be in your close embrace, connected to you, my love, by body, by mind, by heart and by everything that we share,
I look back at a year of us, the day we promised each other our lives, the day so special, I have never been so grateful to the Lord, for having given me you, you are my every dream come true, you are everything I hoped for, and I cherish you every day.
There have been good moments and bad moments, I can’t keep sane and it seems all the love has faded away, is it me, or is it you, I look at the old pictures of us, I yearn for your touch, for you to make me feel loved, I wonder, why everything that I prayed for suddenly is missing, why I am not happy anymore, maybe its all just a phase, and it will pass soon.
I sometimes feel the love is lost, and this year though I have you, I finally have you but there is no love, no more I love you’s, no more joyous conversations, no more exciting WhatsApp notification, no more call logs, no more adrenaline rush waiting for your call, everything has changed, I have forgotten what love felt like back then, and now its just life, I knew life would get a little rocky, but this soon?
I was and always have been hopeful for us, that we would be different. You are caring, giving, loving, and everything I could have asked for, your little actions and gestures, are something to die for, looking on the bright side, I have the best human in this entire generation with me, no one could have done things whatever you do for me, without saying, without asking, I am thankful, and I really love you and sometimes I would also like to be seen and heard, and appreciated, for whatever I am, whatever I do, out of love for you, do you see me? How much I have changed? And though I know and feel that you see me and love me beyond being nice, being a good person, and I would really adore seeing the love growing between us this year.
Happy Anniversary my Love, Celebrating a year of the Autumn that you gave me, the smile ,the love, the promise, the caring, the sharing, the love. To the blissful one year.
I would love to know more about you, I love you so much, and to many such years to come, Cheers!! Dedicating this beautiful song to you.