Are you still using that old phone that you bought with me? It has been months since we talked and not a single day goes by when I do not think of you, you used to be the last thought of my day and you still are, every night falls and reminds me of you, I wonder are you alright?
I want to call you, maybe text you, and want to hear your voice, in the years gone by, the only soothing music to my soul was you and your lively laugh. I know you miss smiling and laughing heartily more than me, A zillion, gazillion sorry can’t make up for what I have done, but you were and still are the love of my life, I know I used to say it very less, or none at all, since I never could understand that whatever we had was love.
I love youI love you so much
I was fortunate enough to have met you, loved you and I know, it was me, who walked away, not knowing that it is love that I was seeking and it love that I am leaving behind.
I wonder how do you feel if I call you, will you talk to me? will you take me back? I am remembered of the time when I called you to check how have you saved my number and a little blue heart flashed across my name, our love story was beautiful and like every other human being, I was stupid and now late enough to realize that it was all I had.
New Year is coming and I wish I could have given you a new phone, how happy you would be, I am so sorry, I could not be whatever we thought we will be. Life could have taken a different turn were we together. There was never a day that I have slept peacefully without listening to you.
If I could turn back time, I would make things right with you, and would never leave you. I would bring you flowers, I would make your coffee, that grilled sandwich you loved, and would keep on kissing your lips.
I look at the saved pictures of you and me, I could not delete them, I do not want to forget the last of us together, every place I visit reminds me of you, every corner that we hugged, held hands and I cry, why did I do this to us? Why could no one stop me, why did I turn my blind eye on you, on us.
I scroll through Instagram late at night, hoping to see you or hear from you, I come across cute little bears and they always remind me of you.
I can’t help but remember the taste of your lips, it has been years since someone kissed me like you used to, making me forget my whole world, and that hug, like nothing matters in this entire universe. I have never been loved the way you loved me, and I yearn for you, curled up in a blanket, hoping to be in your arms, my eyes shed a tear as I miss you, and more than anything, my heart aches, my mind and I can’t stop.
I think about you one last time before I close my eyes, to start another day without you, hoping the magic to happen, timelines to change, and endless possibilities to open up, so that we may end up together, and I do not walk away from once in a lifetime kind of love that I found in you.
I love you my darling, I will always love you.
I hope you buy a new phone soon and maybe find a new love who loves you the way you loved me, unconditionally.